诚实的代价

我失业了。
突如其来的,连我也还无法接受这残忍的事实。
一切便发生在星期五。
原因?
就因为我大胆承认自己的性倾向。

“对不起,上面不会批准的。”
这是他们给我的最后一句话。

错讹。
听了许多道歉的话后,我回到公司收拾东西。
同事们都忙着当天举办的慈善筹款活动。
知道这件事的人只有我的三个上司。
我不忍跟同事们实话实说,就只好假装请了半天假离开公司。

这两个月的一切好像瞬间从他们的记忆里面蒸发掉。
而我,感觉特别空虚。
是一场噩梦?
还是美梦?
两个月以来所建立的友情,使我觉得好惋惜。
我还以为会从此在那里工作下去。
和他们成为好朋友呢。
谁料到,这只是我愚昧的想法而已。

会后悔当初决定承认自己的性倾向吗?
夏日也问过我。
可是我没有答案。
只是接下来的路该怎么走,我自己都觉得好像迷失了方向。
同志能走向社会,并不是一件说做就做的事。
需要很多勇气,
和不怕碰钉子的决心。
而我的勇气和决心,
被社会狠狠地用利刀切成两半,
伤痕累累了。

又得埋头找工作了。
唉。


11 Comments

  • n_o_n_g

    21 7 月, 2007

    你很勇敢,加油!

    • Kongnir

      21 7 月, 2007

      谢谢。
      我却分不清到底是勇敢,还是愚蠢了。

  • Anonymous

    21 7 月, 2007

    Sorry to hear about your job…

    Sigh…Next time no need to be so “honest”. Take it as a sign that it’s time to move on to greener pastures. All the best for your job hunt!

    James K

  • kissingpanda

    22 7 月, 2007

    Passed by. All the best and good luck on looking for your new job.

  • numix

    22 7 月, 2007

    别灰心!我相信你一定能找到属于自己的一片天空!加油!

    • Kongnir

      23 7 月, 2007

      谢谢咯!

  • seigen

    22 7 月, 2007

    I am not really sure where you are working at… But if the company don’t have any cases of people who accepts plu… Then it is better not to self-proclaim.

    Really hope you will quickly find a better job ok.
    Don’t be too upset about it.
    It is their lost to lose you. Hahaha…

    =D

    • Kongnir

      23 7 月, 2007

      I din realise that. Cos the declaration was done way before I really started work. Sigh.

  • froidhiver

    22 7 月, 2007

    i am shocked at ur post. *sayang*. hope you are feeling better now. True enuff, i duno whether it’s brave of you to delcare or it’s stupidity. But singapore is still a rather traditional country despite the fact that the situation is much betta than last time (i think). But anyway wad’s done is done, now is to find another new company and I am sure you are able to find it soon! =D

    • Kongnir

      23 7 月, 2007

      Now I’ve to be careful of what I say le.

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